Mr. Navarro, my name is Lee Davis. I’m sure you’ll probably never read this or feel anything for it (if the heart-wrenching missives from those you once promised to love and protect don’t reach you), but I feel like I must try.
What did the Lord of Lies promise you to drive your ship into the Rock of Temptation? No one is perfect, but, you have to know if you’ve made the Covenant where this perilous journey will lead you. There is no insult that I could throw at you that you haven’t already launched upon yourself, Sir. I mean, David, can you look at any images of your past life without a tremendous wave of guilt crashing down on you? Oh, yeh, that’s the EXACT reason you can’t look in the mirror anymore. Mr. Navarro, you are a fraudulent reproduction of a MAN. I can’t even tell you how creepily disgusting your choice is. I want you to THINK! I’m not here to offer you any solace – the world is up your <…> because THAT’S WHERE YOU STUCK IT!!!!!!!!!
For a moment, just pull your head outta there, and maybe, JUST MAYBE the lilt of the soft bridal processional music will reach your ear. I saw that by-the-altar wedding photo of you, Alison and your first-born. It broke my heart into a few pieces as I remember the nervous joy of my own wedding day where I consented before my Maker and family to go into Eternity with my love. HOW COULD YOU IGNORE THE IMPORT OF THE MEANING OF THAT GESTURE?!?!?!?! Everything that you were is now rendered false by this ill-informed decision. How much pain and suffering are you going to allow yourself? The lawyers and legal system that you depend on for “protection-by-seclusion” is no match for the gnawing beast of guilt and rank piteousness that your conscience must be wailing you with at the moment.
You chose to destroy your own life? NOT fine, but it is your prerogative. And it’s mine to say this to you; the grass IS NOT greener on the other side of the fence. In fact, it’s a pale, scaborous shade of dead. That death and decay will mirror the destitution of your own soul in time. You may think that what you traded (down) for will ease that growing void in you, but it’s only the beginning. Which is why you’re resorting to drink and drug to kill the pain. I suspect you’ll be taking a page out of John Osbournes’ 1973 tour diary (“Killing Yourself To Live”) just to get through the day.
David Navarro, this is a wakeup call. I know that you’ll just brush this off as just another person who has no idea about the forces that drove you into your witless decision, but I can surely delineate what your negative arc will be;
- Months 1-3: Feelings of (fake) euphoria. Tendencies to “paint the town red” and other delusions followed blindly
- Months 4-6: Faint pangs of guilt induced by logic of the current, ruined situation – overpowered by narcissicism
- Months 7-9: Mental feedback induced by self-realization (descent into drugs/alcohol begin in earnest)
- Months 10-12: Current situation begins to falter, escalation into bickering/full-on emotional flare-ups
And from there, it’s all a landslide of ruination. I just can’t believe that you’re willing to be such a goon-out when the very same thing was done to you in the past. Reading your brother Anthony’s words broke my heart even further,
“What’s most saddening is that as David and I both come from a broken home, that was one thing he constantly swore would never happen to his family – he would never commit adultery and he would never leave. He was making those promises up until the final months before he was discovered. He knows first hand the pain of what it was like as a child to have a parent choose sex and fame over their own family, and yet he chose to inflict the same crime against his children, and calling his oldest son “hostile” for calling him to account… As the oldest child, that’s what happened to me as well. The parent commits the crime, but they make the children feel as if it’s their fault.”
And if the emotional quotient of those quoted words does not reach you, maybe an economic illustration will sit better with you. As you’ve chosen Online Marketing as a vocation that’s powerful enough to make you leave your family, do you not realize that it’s all about the social aspect now?!? WHO in their right mind is going to trust you enough to hand you their money knowing full well that you’ve already violated one of the more sacred Human trusts?
I wouldn’t give you a six-day old bag of canine fecal matter to do anything with for me. And, considering that I’m on a more established socio-technical level than you, wouldn’t it make sense for me to exploit that weakness in your platform for my own personal gain?
I have just experienced a sort of familial dissolution with the death of my own father, and can’t imagine where I’d be right now if that blessed old man had bowed to social pressures and abandoned his family for selfish reasons. You are sowing the seeds of destruction for your children on this planet. They seem to have a WONDERFUL man in your brother Anthony, and I for one think that he will be more of a man than you’ll ever have been for having to raise you, then the family you abandoned. Have you even had a fleeting thought about Alison. The fact that she even wants your sorry ass back is a true testament to love and patience.
How in the name of all that’s right and Holy could you have abandoned your wife in her time of need of your support when she was in a HOSPITAL BED?!?!?!? I have said a small, common-sense prayer for you. I just can’t imagine that you could be that heartless and swinish. What have you done? God Bless and Help you. It’s the only thing that’s gonna put you right. It’s men like you who ruin it for the rest of us.